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single again - phew,. lol damnit i suck at dating
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All these posts are making me want to post -- i dont have anything entirely interesting to talk about - youd have to be around more - or id have to post more - for any of my simple minded drama to matter to you! hah .. who am i kidding? I dont even care about it!
Majority of my time is filled with class and school work. I now have weekends "free" because i had to quit my job (as a market researcher- bleh, not fun anyway) to accomodate my schooling. As you can imagine this is putting a serious dent in my wallet. Well, more like a void.
This weekend is reggae night at the marquee and im upset that im not going :( but cover is insane and alcohol, as always, costs money. Next week is thanksgiving and mom is flipping the bill for 1/3rd of the car rental cost. The weekend after that is my cousins's wedding. He's 25, and is in the Ministry program at Acadia - at least i think its Acadia. His wife to be is in the same program (go figure) and they are getting hitched in Moncton. This will be the first wedding of my generation on my dad's side of the family. Its also my little brother's 13th birthday that weekend! I cant believe he's officially a teenager. Scary thoughts. I'll just make sure to drill some things into his head like "treat ALL women with respect!!" I think he'll turn out to be a pretty good person.
The following weekend mom wants me to go home again to celebrate justin's bday which i have no quams with because, again, its a free ride home - and god i miss home. The following weekend is halloween - and its my birthday!!!!! 23. Whoa. I'll be happy as long as my 3 closest friends are there and i am sufficiently drunk when i decide to go to bed.
If you read this please do one small thing for me - please hope, and wish and pray (if you do that) for this one thing i need to happen. Its for my family. A very important matter. So however you word it - really feel it for me, really mean it.
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ahhh im bored. at school - i alotted 5 hours to study for an accounting exam . i studied for 4 hours yesterday and there is just not that much material.. considering its only been like 3 classes and we already have an exam! craziness. anyhow.. im bored
this guy i dated last year moved away to antigonish and was visiting halifax this weekend so like last month sometime he made sure i cleared my schedule to put time aside for hime.. and guess what .. he didnt call!!! i hate guys. mannnn i wish i could be content without human contact - well i sometimes wish that. othertimes, of course, its very gratifying to spend time with people -- well most times. i just hate flakes!! hate hate hate.
i broke up with a gay man this week - because hes a flake - i told him our friendship had dissolved. which it has.
i made friends with a new gay man though .. from work. hes great! we had a couple drinks over the weekend and he yeah, hes cool. not so flaky and hes in university - not often do i have gay man friends in school - who can relate with me.
i have $23 in change .. loonies and quarters in my bag :D going to see Narnia: Prince Caspian tonight .... yay ,.
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[30 Dec 2007|03:08pm] |
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I havent posted in a very long time and i'm sorry to anyone who may have read any of the posts i may have posted :D
I have some time to kill before the bus comes.
Ive been back in Halifax for about 29 hours. So far its been quite productive. My father drove myself, ellen and her sister, sarah, back from cape breton up to hali. My father got a speedinging ticket on the way up - $279 - needless to say, mom was pissed and now i have to take the shuttle whenever im travelling. Ellen and sarah came to halifax to catch a flight out to newfoundland. st john's to be specific. Ellen and sarah have an aunt who is very high up on the scale at scotiabank and had previously mentined to me that they are always looking for people - Ellen and Sarah had supper at their aunt's house and i was invited. Their aunt asked me to email her a copy of my resume and so i did. Not even the 1st of January and my plans are already ahead of schedule. Hopefully i can get hired and trained in the week before school.. haha -- that may not happen but at least Its not mid semester and im taking on a fulltime job thats going to ultimately fuck my school grades -- yeah that happened last year - live and learn they say - live and learn
so the job scene seems to be going well. Well.. im sure she will get me a job - she likes me and i have family connections.
I live at 5577 Cogswell st now - which is on the corner of maynard - and 2 blocks from gottagen - my gateway to the ghetto. I really like my new place thouhg. Would have been nicer if i hadnt broken my hand only 4 days after moving into it. Luckily i had some friends come over and help me with the unpacking, the cleaning and the decorating -- then i packed up and left for cape breton for 3 weeks because i was totally unable to write my final exams - which fucking sucks right now because they are just sitting over my head - waiting to stress me out.
hmm not even 8 minutes have gone by .. i guess i'll be writing an entire chapter if this keeps up- - well i dont think i actually have that much to write about.
Cape breton was a pretty good time. the first week there was basically hell, i dont know why i get so fucking tired and cranky when i get there but it happens and all i can do is wait for it to pass -- it eventually does. I spend a lot of time with janet when i got home - considering she is the only close friend i still have living there. We just did some running around and hanging out at her place - didnt really go out much with her. Then Caitlin adn Ellen got home. I barely saw caitlin -- she spent a lot of time with her dying grandfather ad her possessive boyfriend. We did exchange gifts and smoked a joint - but im not sure it was enough after not seeing her for like 5 months. Ellen and i spent a lot of time together, as usual! We rock out summer and xmas time in the cape. Went shopping, movies, drinking, drinking, joints, janet's, shopping, and then the drive home and supper at her aunt's.
I was sad to say goodbye to mother - i always cry! I dont know how to stop that. Got back to my place and things were in pretty good shape. My friend mike did my dishes for me when i was away - had to leave them because i was in cast and not allowed to get wet - taking showers was such a pain in the ass. there is still some unpacking and decorating to get done but the majority of everything is done. I think i will live in this apartment for the rest of my university career --- well i hope, depends on the power bill i guess! havent got that yet.
No love happening - none at alll. still totally infatuated with TC and we talk from time to time. he says he wants to see me again but i never see him - so .. nothing happening there. other than that - my problems rest with the gang of men ive told "i do not want to date you" who still try to date me. Am i a bitch if i accept meals, activities and things even though im not interested .. and ive already told them that? I dont think so.
January 3rd i go see the doctor about my hand - its not fully functional and it hurts to write :( but hopefully he will have good news.
Best xmas gift is the grey's anatomy season 3 i ordered from ebay with mom's credit card that hasnt arrived yet -- but i know its going to be the best. Other than that my gifts mostly consisted of shirts, sweaters, socks, jewelry and chocolate! definitely a good time
by the end of my trip to cape breton i was happy and busy and having fun with the kids and not sleeping and being cranky all the time - im going grocery shopping when the bus gets here.. im totally going to buy some discount turkey lol
I can cook, i just chose not to because i hate cleaning - what can i do? i will eventually take pictures of my new place and post them - probably on facebook - is that faux pas? to talk about facebook on livejournal? lol .. well if you read my updates and use facebook, we should definitely be facebook friends: Vicki Snow, Halifax - ok, so thats 20 minutes i spent updating! going to find something else for the next 15 mintues!
tata
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[16 Oct 2007|01:03am] |
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my roommate is an inconsiderate asshole. but he ships out to the persian gulf in 2 weeks. a little part of me wants him to get blown up.
school is crazy hectic - infact i have 2 mid terms tomorrow - fact* my roommate has the tv blaring at 1am - completely disregarding the fact that i might want to be sleeping - asshole - fuck.
I spend almost ALL of my day and All of my days on campus - avoiding this prick. sad. 2 more weeks. i can handle that.
my birthday is soon. Im planning to be in cb for the weekend of it - driving back on the actual date. Im against celebrating in Halifax because last year was so horrible. 22 -- still young, still peppy
i am completely single. good for me. been dating the usual worst choice in people - im never dating below my standards again - ever - even if im single til death.
completely negative post - ugh - sorry. just stressed and pissed because my roommate is AN ASSHOLE
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[11 Sep 2007|10:53pm] |
halifax has been interesting. lots of school work - but it was expected
i like living downtown - oh so convenient. not a big fan of random strange roommates. not to say he is strange, but he is definitely a stranger. its his birthday this week and his friend is having a get together here.. im invited - imagine.
BUT what i really want to do is go see metric because they are back and i thought they would never come back to poor ol nova scotia.. but they are playing live on friday night .. same night as the party -go figure
really i should be reading.. i have a lot of reading to do before tomorrow - i doubt it will all get done! but im going to try, after i get off here... its been weeks since ive had an internet connection and so i need to use and abuse said connection.
im pretty sure ive said this before - but im going to say it again
everyone tells you to stop looking for somebody and then you will find somebody. but if all you want is somebody - how can you stop?
my roommate just got home - cant wait to have another 40 second awkward conversation, as usual
its been entirely too long since ive had good - well you know - good .. what all humans really desire ... good, - - i dont want you to think that im some sort of pig - but im in need of a good homecooked meal. :D
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[05 Aug 2007|12:18am] |
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i havent got much exciting news i just felt like typing something that someone might actually read. God knows all of my emails go unanswered.
work work
Jamie and Chris surprise visited me today! That was super fabulous. i love them..and miss my life in hali
trying to find a place to live in september. well not trying very hard. Just facebooking it so far
there has been insane lightning happening lately. i wonder how those evolve goers are doing.. probably LOTS of sketched out people. glad im not there actually
there is one person in my life that i actually feel attached to.. and im not supposed to feel this way. he doesnt feel that way.. we will most likely not live in the same place ever again in our lives (although, its happened twice already) ah well. just wanted to get that out in the open. he's been on my mind and i facebook him too! hah
i want to go shopping and spend ALL my money on clothes and shoes and jewelry... but then i will be homeless in september/.. probably not worth it.
Im looking forward to school because its a break from work. i feel like anything i do at school is 10 x's more useful and productive than anything i do outside of school.
Im not going to smoke pot at all during the school year
i miss ellen! last summer we had a blast. come back ellen.. to sydney, where i am.. not many other people are here. but i'm here.. and i'm worth it!
ellen will never read that, she doesnt livejournal.
someone should have a huge house party on a(ny upcoming) saturday night and invite me.. and i will have at least 2 other friends with me, that ARE NOT a couple and we will drink and be merry. that should happen before september. it would make me very happy. ....... I hate not having my own place
In 2 weeks i have to tell my most favorite boss ever that im moving back to halifax and not staying here to work for her.. like i said i would be. Im a bad person for that. Karma is going to kick me in the ass. But i needed the job, and i like the job .. and i would stay if cbu (cb in general) didnt suck so much ass (no offense to anyone)... maybe even if there was a big enough space in my house for all my stuff i would consider it. But at this point there is just nothing in cape breton for me besides my family and like 2 friends.. that work all the time anyway.
yeah so../. boys suck. girls are cooler and statistically speaking, smell better.
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[29 Jun 2007|11:45am] |
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another summer, this will be the 21st one of my life.. im hoping it will be a pretty good one. so far it hasnt been all bad.
caitlin is gone to alberta .. for the summer and possibly longer so that kinda sucks.. but i cant blame her for wanting to get out
i really only hang out with janet.. and terry because he's always with janet. i love janet, but i hate her lifestyle. luckily, no one knows who i am so its not like im involved. We usually have a lot of laughs - we have fun! but the middle issue is an issue. if you know what im saying. Janet has been spending entirely too much money on me i feel like a mooch. I liked it better when we were all poor and had nothing to do but hang out with eachother.
I have a job at south of the border in the don cherry's strip in sydney river. Its min wage and not that many hours but my boss is an absolute sweetheart and the stuff we sell is really cool.
Ive applied and interviewed for a job with servicom. its just for the summer and all we do is welcome people. the shift is awesome 5-11pm mon-fri .. so im thinking -- hoping i get the job -- that i will just work at both places and save a lot of money. my goal is to not have to work during school.
a millionaire i met in sydney is being nice to me. but it turns out hes dating several women all over north america. ... so i think i may leave that one as is - even though its a fun dream. i may let him treat me to a couple things while im here. other than that my "love" life.. rather "lust" life is ... non existent.
this surely is a dry dry post
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[01 Jun 2007|02:52pm] |
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Am i making a big mistake? Fuck, I hope not.
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[20 May 2007|11:59am] |
this guy that ive been seeing off and and on for a lonng time- mostly on recently -has decided to be in a relationship with someone else according to facebook. i am extremely upset. not just for him. for everyone whos started up a relationship with someone else while they were dating me. why doesnt anyone want to start a relationship with me?
i feel completely alone.
my msg to him: "well youre in a relationship. weird. guess i wont be seeing you anymore. have a good summer. i hope everything works out in the fall."
his reply: "thanks"
was the first thing i saw when i woke up and have been crying ever since.
facebook makes me cry. it doesnt get any more pathetic than that.
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[09 May 2007|08:15pm] |
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i feel like pouring my soul out - but i dont have anyone to talk to . people are busy with their lives and its hard for me to find a reason to get up in the morning,. im looking for a job. i know i'll get one soon but it just seems like im becoming less and less of a friend and more and more of an accaintance to everyone i know. its very sad ,i feel sad..
i finished my first year at smu with a 3.19 gpa - down .58 from first semester so i was disappointed with that - but overall it will have to do. hopefully i will get into some sort of groove for the next couple years.
i am lonely as all hell. gay men do not keep you warm at night. straight men only care about sex. so im just going to stop having sex until i find someone - that isnt all about the sex.
ive been a constant bitch lately. even the people i really do care about bring it out in me. i can understand why people dont want to be around me. i wouldnt want to be around me if iw asnt me.
i have to move in august. i dont know where, i dont know how im going to afford it and i need a roommate and ughhh i hate all this topsy turvey bullshit,. i want a cut and dry plan for me to follow.
i have an interview this week with easy home. apparently good money and benefits i hope they hire me. maybe it will be so good that i wont need to work and i'll just advance in that field. either way - it will be air conditioned and right down the st from my apartment for the summer.
last summer was awesome. im going to really miss ellen and her pool.. and her family. i miss my family. i want a car - so i can drive away with everything i own that means anything to me and just go places. and be places and yeah. i spend money like water. Im down to my last $600. if i dont get a job soon i think i'll move home. nooo i dont want to move home. i dont know what i want. but i do know that i dont want to be alone for the whole summer :(
thats me in a nutshell right now. boring, pathetic, lazy and lonely.
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hey all - i know its been forever. i guess there is a lot i could say - my brain is little mushy right now so im going to stick with point form!
- mike toomey and i are bestest buds. we hang out everyday watch moves , go out for food, drink, meet people! its a blast - we're a blast - we always have fun and we are driving home to cape breton tonight at 8. so i will be in cape breton for the next 3 days cookin turkey dinner! haha happy easter
- still single and im perfectly okay with that, but i definitely have to get off the online dating sites. talking to way too many guys and none of them have decent intentions. well maybe one, all im going to say aboutthat is TC = mmm
- yesterday was my last day of classes. i have 4 exams - 3 brutal exams.. 1 test that is simple imple. i dont think i'll be keeping my 3.74 GPA but definitely above 3 anyway. i really like university. its just WAY too hard to work and school at the same time .. which brings me to my next point.
- i've quit - yet another job - but i really had to. Ive been rediculously stressed out. nightmares and all. and since starting there my marks have definitely suffered. but i did make a few good friends while working there.
- copius amounts of alcohol and new people pretty much sums up my social life as of the last however many months - 8months. ive been living in hali for 8months! wow. and i have my rent paid up until july. so i only have to pay one more month rent then i gotta find a roommate! God i hope i can find a decent roommate/apartment.
so thats the brief rundown of life for vicki right now! its not too bad. i have exams all this month (april) taking a couple weeks off in may then i need to find a job that i actually like. ughh need some ideas. or a lucky break. that would be fantastic.
off to the races!
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[29 Jan 2007|10:19pm] |
did you know that every year there is about 10-20 shark attacks in the usa, but americans get injured by their toilettes 43000 times a year
classic - i learned that in psychology class today - that $600 is being spent well
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[29 Jan 2007|12:25pm] |
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my first class was cxl today - i am at schoool boreddd .. not fair! class in a half hour though so yeah
not sure but i think i mentioned that i got a job. yay for job - boo that it doesnt start til the 19th of feb and boo that i wont have money til march! one whole month, this is gonnnnna be tough shit.
i really like it when i run into people on campus that i am friends with.. going to go talk to one right now!
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[26 Jan 2007|09:41am] |
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I have 2 letters - T & C - these two letters make me smile uncontrollably
and he lives across the street!!!!
he Came over last night - we had our first official date, here comes that smile
today i have a job interview with teletech - they are going to hire me and i am going to make a lot of money
my cousin called me last night - which may sound like nothing but its the first time he has ever called me in my entire life - we are going to have lunch today
life seems to be getting better! fingers crossed
oh TC
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i just had all 4 wisdom teeth removed - twas a grand experience at 8:30 in the morning. my face is completely frozen and filled with gauze - supposed to bleed for 2 days. cant smoke for 2 days - which im pretty happy about.
I didnt eat before i left - because it is so damn early - and now i regret it
i had a date planned for tonight .. but im going to have to cxl :( because i cannot talk
it only cost me $75 - YAY i was quoted a price of $400 - after coverage.
the teeth were huge, one was at at least 2cm long - very cool looking
my new dentist is very good - and now my bottom teeth will straighten back out
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[09 Jan 2007|10:49pm] |
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i do not like green eggs and ham, or student loan- maw fuckers.
thats all i have to say about that
im lonely.
i have dyed my hair twice in the last week it is multicolored, but i like it
i like to move it, move it?
and a formal Happy 2007 to everyone
- please shoot me and put me out of my misery
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i havent been blonde in over 5 years.. since i was 16 - today and this box of hairdye is going to change all that
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i read a journal today of a guy who posts like every 4 days or so- i feel like i know so much about him. I should do that.
Been hella stressed lately with school and money. ughh money. I finished qunatitative methods with a B+ so im happy about that. Definitely my most difficult course. umm i wrote a 3 hour long english exam last night and have another 3 hour exam on saturday and then I am going home! I can't wait. the bf is a little upset - he doesnt want me to leave for that long but he willhave to suck it up.
we've only been dating for 2 months and im trying to convince him that a limit on xmas is fair! He won't. i spent $50 on him - but i know he's gonna spend like $120 or so on me. this means, that i have to go shopping. Mike lent me some $ for xmas. $300. $150 for rent $100 to get home and back and $50 toward the power bill. My life is so much fun.
I dreamt about home last night. it was interesting. the dog had a limp because he broke his leg earlier this year and i worried about him. really he's the only one i remember from the dream. but it was home
I have a date with someone who is not my boyfriend - and my bf knows about it - i didnt intend for it to be a date but the guy asked me to a movie - i love going to the movies! and i never ever ever get to go so i accepted. Now i feel like a dumbass. the guy is really hot though. Mmm guy. Going to see apocolypto - and we are going to get high before hand! thats what im actually excited about. havent been high in a realllly long time. i need to destress.
It feels like im married. I dont deal well with relationships. he is here all the time. he stays the night every night which is good. i want to see him -but every fucking day i have to pick up after him. every day! thats not fucking fair. its my apartment and its ok for me to make a little mess but a brand new mess everyday from you - not cool. something pisses me off about him every day. thats probably not good. and i try to talk to him about it - but the list is huge right now - so i would just be the bitchy nagging girlfriend. Is there an elegant way to go about this? Without making him hate me? maybe if i just post it here i will feel better
the tub ALWAYS drips when you get out of it - turn the knob 2 more centimeters to the right when you finish
you leave beer cans in the bathroom, in my bedroom, on the floor, on the table, AND when you do put them away you put them in the garbage - hello recycle
when you take blankets out of the linen closet dont just fold them up and put them on a chair when you finish - put them BACK IN the linen closet
don't wear your shoes in my apartment
when you cook try using one pan to fry it all instead of 3 - that you leave for days before you clean
half full coffee cups - every morning same deal with the beer cans - only make a half cup if thats all you're going to drink!!
plastic bags - everyday you come here you have 5 more plastic bags full of crap that you plunk down on my table and leave there - if you're gonna live here your stuff needs a place - make one
when you take showers you leave all your clothes behind the bathroom door until i move it - cant open the door all the way with that shit there!
drinks all my milk but never brings me more
smokes entirely too much -- leaves cigarette burning in ashtray, on other butts - causing them to ignite and stink like shit
omg this list really does go on forever if i think about it - even a little bit.
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